The Journey Cannot End

 To Haru.

You were my touchstone and guide.

"Like billions before him regardless of form

It ended as chance had decided

So briefly contained an inferno's refrain

Having powered and angered and guided".

BE'LAKOR.

The Journey Cannot End

I don't know exactly what happened or how.

I just wanted not to get hurt this time.

It was definitely not planned.

It happened by chance, as chance has decided.

But everything seems disconnected and connected at the same time.

I realised that when someone hurts us, they only hurt themselves. If they judge us, that's what they judge in themselves with shameful whispers, fearful of others finding that delusion they use as a mask.

And I am truly sorry for that.

However, the chain of my nightmares is broken now.

Bad memories don't know how to hold pain anymore.

The wound vanished.

The scar remained as a ghost of what I thought impossible.

I remember those bad memories as they are, without any sorrow.

My feelings roam my heart, free of any illusion of control.

My thoughts roam my mind, free of any illusion of control.

I finally shattered the mirror in which my self-image was trapped, to destroy it.

I stopped a war in which only I could fall defeated.

I set myself free and could see the corpses of my past beliefs in who I could never be, in the judgment I held to hide my fear, and the carcass of empathy being weakness.

Empathy is the way the universe greets us.

Empathy is the key to a lock that never existed.

I am the one I was waiting for.

I just didn't know I didn't have to wait for anybody else.

I am pure event, just occurring, I am shapeless.

And at last,

I am at peace.

How silly of me: happiness was everywhere all along, looking for room in myself.

Everywhere I look, I am set free.

Everywhere I look, everything is free.

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